Sounds like megan

used

Sun, 16 Sep 2007 07:59:21 +0200

Spinning in a whirlpool of blood I created.
Who is the creator?
I am just a body being used.

Repercussion

Thu, 13 Sep 2007 09:46:38 +0200

Daily functions
What are they?
I need to runaway
keep away from the pain
So deep
Still bleeding
Living inside me
a Thriving demon
Cutting me to pieces
Chewing my insides
spits them out

Wo am I to deserve
anything good
My worth was established
as a little girl

I swallow a pill
Away I fly, to the wonderness

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Ths Depression

Thu, 13 Sep 2007 08:43:32 +0200

Excitment as the air freshens
Bricks build themselves
I see the sky
its beautiful
so restfull
so sleepy...........sleep...
I cant get up its all to hard
Feelings of nothing
eyes are closed
My peace
I sleep
Darkness consumes me

How to fight?

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Youngest

Thu, 13 Sep 2007 08:39:14 +0200

A light brought me to life
Starting so nice, my family.
A joy in a breath
Inside everything worked.
World is an ocean,
I am the sailor
Tame the wild seas
Home becoming
A storm that needed breaking.

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Event

Thu, 13 Sep 2007 08:26:26 +0200

Darkness carries, wind kills.
Spirit developing, evil wakes
Walls have broken,
Carpet is burnt
no-one listening,
stories run
bigger the better,
lies that grow.
Ant in the morning
Night evening a dove.
Help me, Help me
let me breath.
Get me outta here,
This inner hell.
Darkness so thick
Breathing doesnt exist
Its survival, survival
I dont want to survive.
I want to be gone.
Stolen, like my innocence.
The blade is so bright,
So clean
one slice, no more beating.
Feed my heart to the dog.

With each slap, a scould
A sourness eats my soul.

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Thought

Thu, 13 Sep 2007 07:44:30 +0200

Flower is dying, heart is beating
petals are falling, roots are breathing
Change is the essence that keeps moving
Whose are the hands that carry the dirt
Where is the destination?
Who will I be?
What will I believe?

Dance with me in spirit
Hold my soul inside the waves
Some of me drowns, more remains

I remain to hold on
hold onto me
whoever that may be............

change is the essence that keeps me sane
change is what I thrive on,

I feel the change
I feel my neck break

cut my insides
remove the dirt
cleanse me into something believable

I feel me turning,
I grieve, I love, Ive lost me inside the change.

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Lost in translation

Sun, 12 Aug 2007 12:00:42 +0200

I stand in many colors, breathing wine, eating noodles and driving online.
The road is only living with visions of moods that float.
I enjoy musicians rantings and metophoric places with tastes sweet.
A spirit frees the clouds, makes way for the sun to bow.
I am me, a strange individual creature.
Am I me the questions never end.
Me I am, never lost.
You lost me in translation.

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Destiny

Fri, 03 Aug 2007 10:53:30 +0200

Destiny

When I woke up I realized nothing is a dream
The place id been living is now a reality
Id been living a blur for oh since my teens
Holding onto something that was placed inside of me

Destinys before you behind you history
What you imagine you are is who your going to be
Your historys what makes you choose who you are today
The future in your head is your destined reality

I remember the day God planted the seed
I was 8yo and just wanted to sing
People will always tell you it wont happen to you
As I close my eyes I know my future is what Ive dreamed

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Love equals

Thu, 02 Aug 2007 20:45:38 +0200

Love Equals

Working but enjoying your existence
Loving others to love you
Love has no boundaries, no fences
Relies on discipline.

Love is knowing the owner of the problem
Love is faking ownership anyway
Love equals forgiveness, Forgiveness equals Love

I’ve been pushed by the one I love
I’ve been hurt by the one I love
All for the purpose, of building stronger

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Punnishment

Thu, 02 Aug 2007 20:43:06 +0200

Punishment

Where are the words I thought were inside me
Where are the chances you said I would take
I’ve been sitting at this oven
While my food is burning
Not thinking to take it out

Where is the whip you said you’d hit me with
What am I being punished for again
How long were you going to be?
Where were you going after that?

I thought emotions were all I needed
They were the key to your heart
Nothing like climbing the wrong tree looking for shelter.

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Jesus

Thu, 02 Aug 2007 20:40:46 +0200

Jesus

All my like I thought I wanted to be a star.
Name in lights big house and a fancy car
Soon I found there was something I wanted more
He covers the earth with his smoke

His name is Jesus, Jesus,
Jesus who loves me just as I am

Change my life from that moment on
Ill praise your holly name
Your name in lights
Ill build your house

Jesus shout it louder than life
Jesus ill lift your name on high

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Resetting Mindsets

Thu, 02 Aug 2007 20:37:27 +0200

Resetting Mindsets

I was working hard for a reason
Playing with time and space
I was holding onto the manual
That kept me within the rules
It was like being in an army camp
The body got toned and cut shape
Training camp that is of total belief
Resetting mindsets

It was the unseen that made it seen
The foundation in which was laid
It was the unseen that made is possible
Live life in assured state of mind
The commander forced the groundwork
Created a routine of education
Resetting mindsets

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Surprises

Thu, 02 Aug 2007 10:28:02 +0200

Surprises

I needed a sweet you gave it to me
You held it in my hand I closed my eyes
Opened my mouth and filled my body
What was left of you?

It’s a surprise you remembered me
You’re a surprise with your muscles
You’re a surprise you knew me
N more surprises, you are my everything

You knew where I was when I needed
Without me asking
You know my name without it written
Knew my life and loved me the same

Its special you found me before I was lost
You’re special when you keep me close to your heart
You’re special when you hold my name
I’m special in an ugly world.

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Robot

Thu, 02 Aug 2007 10:17:46 +0200

Robot

I was grey and used, you put me together
You collected all the right contents
Crafted them together
Tough to withstand the weather, you made me

I was programmed to be used in this hour
I was built with you in mind
Different opinions, body the same
Differences were handed out.

I’m a robot to fulfill the purpose
I’m a robot choose like one
I’m a robot you’re pressing the wrong buttons
I’m a robot built to destroy
Engaging with the tongue

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Pearly Shores

Thu, 02 Aug 2007 10:16:21 +0200

Pearly Shores

You made me promise I could fly
Told me life would complete in full
Life has been multiplied with one breath of you
You hold the dream in my heart, beat by beat

A promise land is what I have walked into
Golden pathways
A promise land I stand
Where the promise began
Island where rubies are ripe and ready
The shores filled with pearls

Jewels were planted in a loving embrace
A pan of gold I hold and drink
Dirt kicked creates scriptures of love
No longer dirt transformed into gold.

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It happened again

Thu, 02 Aug 2007 05:20:28 +0200

It happened Again

My brain can not comprehend
The intensity of your smile
The complexity of your mind
Not afraid to take charge
Responsibility for your actions

It happened again I broke a record
It happened again I fell in love
It happened again You made me smile
My experiences are yours, history is ours.

In the beginning I wrote the end
You saw right through me, vulnerability overwhelming
You called me; my entire being fell through the floor
I heard your mind in mine.

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Quiet

Thu, 02 Aug 2007 00:15:09 +0200

Quiet

You told me something amazing
That is totally relevant to you
I should have bee ecstatic
I’m quiet, I’m not jealous, I’m quiet.

I should have been happy and I am
I give you my blessing, pray all goes well
Why would we have gifts and not use them
I’m quiet, I’m not jealous, I’m quiet.

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you see me

Tue, 31 Jul 2007 04:24:06 +0200

You See Me

I heard there was someone watching over me
How did this happen when Ive guarded my life
How did it happen, how

You see me even when Im unusual
You see me me even when I don’t want you to, or anyone
To see me, You see me
I close the door so you can see me

I heard there was someone looking after my dreams
Nurturing believing as I sing
How is it you love me even when I fall
How is it you need me when I am nothing,
Nothing to his world

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Where was it

Mon, 30 Jul 2007 03:57:13 +0200

Where It Was

Where was the ocean when I wanted to swim
Where were your toys when you wanted to play
Where were my glasses when the sun came out
Where was the money when the talk was empty

Why do things go missing
How can things disappear
Who comes in to steal what we don’t have
Who will return what was thrown away

Where are the tissues to blow my nose
Where were the notes for me to study
Where is the book I had to read
Where were you going when I was at home

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Medication

Sun, 29 Jul 2007 10:05:55 +0200

Medication

I thought is something wrong with my mind
Doctor agreed with my diagnosis
He gave me some medication to ease the pain
It also decreased my daily senses of life

The medication that keeps me alive
Holds onto what is broken
The medication of the pill that keeps me high
Substance inside the pill
Cuts off my esophagus as it goes down

The prevented becomes necessary to stay alive
The presence of my saviour is my medication

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Robot

Sun, 29 Jul 2007 10:04:11 +0200

Robot

I was grey and used, you put me together
You collected all the right contents
Crafted them together
Tough to withstand the weather, you made me

I was programmed to be used in this hour
I was built with you in mind
Different opinions, body the same
Differences were handed out.

I’m a robot to fulfill the purpose
I’m a robot choose like one
I’m a robot you’re pressing the wrong buttons
I’m a robot built to destroy
Engaging with the tongue

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Answer Is

Fri, 27 Jul 2007 10:23:02 +0200

Answer Is

Feed the hungry give them what they need
Just as you were fed and hunger filled
Sacrifice a little for those others,
Who really thought they would rather be dead

You are the answer to your own problems
Help someone and watch your situation change
You are the healer of your own life
Fix your neighbor and watch your own life rise

The only answer I know is Jesus
To remove the chains holding the ground
The answer is Jesus
Remove the hurt and forgive
The beautiful name Jesus

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Butterfly

Thu, 26 Jul 2007 03:48:09 +0200

Butterfly

I was born to be free, I cut the chains from my wrist.
On a stage built for me, I breathe
Listen to the sound that surrounds me
Whisper to myself it was worth it

Released like a butterfly, beautiful into the sky
I was cocooned for so long
With every new tear a new life, every trouble a new victory
To become the beautiful butterfly I am today

A moment of growth was a moment of pain
The cocoon you built was enough to sustain
The weather of life forward and back
Foundation was laid, Spine so strong

Step by step the cocoon breaks
Step by step the colors were shown
Step by step Beauty again, beauty for ashes.

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Gut Wrenches

Thu, 26 Jul 2007 01:23:27 +0200

Gut wrenches

My gut wrenches when you reach out
My gut wrenches when you touch my soul
My gut wrenches as my heart changes

You broke me in two, sold, give it to you.
You broke me free, my life, victory.
You broke me free, I can move
You broke me free, I can breathe

I feel the pain as my wounds heal
I feel the hurt come out from my inside
I feel the hammer hit my head
Freedom from the inside.

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Missing

Thu, 26 Jul 2007 00:30:40 +0200

Missing

I will sing like a bird until you come home
I will smile with my teeth showing as if you were here
I will jump from cloud to cloud with your hand in mine
Laughing like we use to

I will wash your clothes as if you still wore them
I will shed my weight as if you asked
I will celebrate our anniversary with a cooked dinner
I will not accept you are not coming back

I will not be stuck on what’s happening now
What you were or would be
You will run through my head like a home movie
You will pulse through my veins like you’re still my lover

I know you are gone but I refuse to believe you are missing.

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An Artist

Wed, 25 Jul 2007 23:06:20 +0200

An Artist

Who decides what is art and what is rubbish
When is an artist dreaming, when they are creating?
Do we live with nothing for the sake of art?
Do we sacrifice it all to create?

A true artist does not stop creating when the world stops watching
An artist continues to create history
Within the veins of a creator is an artist to be individually creating
Listens to what can’t be heard.

An artist creates life from the dust of the earth
An artist pumps integrity into the world
An artist dreams and creates new dreams everyday
An artist flies from home, to the home in their head
Listens to what can’t be heard.

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