Sounds like megan

Spinning in a whirlpool of blood I created.
Who is the creator?
I am just a body being used.

Daily functions
What are they?
I need to runaway
keep away from the pain
So deep
Still bleeding
Living inside me
a Thriving demon
Cutting me to pieces
Chewing my insides
spits them out

Wo am I to deserve
anything good
My worth was established
as a little girl

I swallow a pill
Away I fly, to the wonderness

Excitment as the air freshens
Bricks build themselves
I see the sky
its beautiful
so restfull
so sleepy...........sleep...
I cant get up its all to hard
Feelings of nothing
eyes are closed
My peace
I sleep
Darkness consumes me

How to fight?

A light brought me to life
Starting so nice, my family.
A joy in a breath
Inside everything worked.
World is an ocean,
I am the sailor
Tame the wild seas
Home becoming
A storm that needed breaking.

Darkness carries, wind kills.
Spirit developing, evil wakes
Walls have broken,
Carpet is burnt
no-one listening,
stories run
bigger the better,
lies that grow.
Ant in the morning
Night evening a dove.
Help me, Help me
let me breath.
Get me outta here,
This inner hell.
Darkness so thick
Breathing doesnt exist
Its survival, survival
I dont want to survive.
I want to be gone.
Stolen, like my innocence.
The blade is so bright,
So clean
one slice, no more beating.
Feed my heart to the dog.

With each slap, a scould
A sourness eats my soul.

Flower is dying, heart is beating
petals are falling, roots are breathing
Change is the essence that keeps moving
Whose are the hands that carry the dirt
Where is the destination?
Who will I be?
What will I believe?

Dance with me in spirit
Hold my soul inside the waves
Some of me drowns, more remains

I remain to hold on
hold onto me
whoever that may be............

change is the essence that keeps me sane
change is what I thrive on,

I feel the change
I feel my neck break

cut my insides
remove the dirt
cleanse me into something believable

I feel me turning,
I grieve, I love, Ive lost me inside the change.

I stand in many colors, breathing wine, eating noodles and driving online.
The road is only living with visions of moods that float.
I enjoy musicians rantings and metophoric places with tastes sweet.
A spirit frees the clouds, makes way for the sun to bow.
I am me, a strange individual creature.
Am I me the questions never end.
Me I am, never lost.
You lost me in translation.

Destiny

When I woke up I realized nothing is a dream
The place id been living is now a reality
Id been living a blur for oh since my teens
Holding onto something that was placed inside of me

Destinys before you behind you history
What you imagine you are is who your going to be
Your historys what makes you choose who you are today
The future in your head is your destined reality

I remember the day God planted the seed
I was 8yo and just wanted to sing
People will always tell you it wont happen to you
As I close my eyes I know my future is what Ive dreamed

Love Equals

Working but enjoying your existence
Loving others to love you
Love has no boundaries, no fences
Relies on discipline.

Love is knowing the owner of the problem
Love is faking ownership anyway
Love equals forgiveness, Forgiveness equals Love

I’ve been pushed by the one I love
I’ve been hurt by the one I love
All for the purpose, of building stronger

Punishment

Where are the words I thought were inside me
Where are the chances you said I would take
I’ve been sitting at this oven
While my food is burning
Not thinking to take it out

Where is the whip you said you’d hit me with
What am I being punished for again
How long were you going to be?
Where were you going after that?

I thought emotions were all I needed
They were the key to your heart
Nothing like climbing the wrong tree looking for shelter.